haiz i really feel like crying!i should have just let it all out just know when tiff asked me too..but too many pple!haha i dunno i just very sad,pissed,angry,upset!urgh!!i guess the problem just lies with me ultimately!why must i be like that!?!urgh!i hate myself!i feel so hurt!!why must they be like that?why must she say that?does she knows how hurt i am?i guess she doesn't understand how hurt i am..no matter how 'what' i am i'm still human and i still have feelings!does she know?NO!!urgh!then again it's all because of ME!why must i be the one i am?so rude so me!!i guess that's just me!i really trying!god pls give me the strength i really can't take it anymore!my heart my whole cannot take it anymore!!i dont know how i became like that!ok i'm seriously hurt now as though i was being stabbed a hundred times non stop..the words she said just keep coming to my mind!they can't be remove!urgh!!i really can't talk anymore i'm going to cry!!!urgh today's really screwed up for me!!really really really bad!i guessed i shouldn't have come to sch today then all this wouldn't have happen..i guess i should'nt even be here!!i cos misery and hatred to pple!urgh i hate myself!i'm sorry k!